life as your heart

you cradle my face in your ashen hands, and no,
no, i can't breathe.
all i can smell is you, promising i'd never get that close.
telling you i love you so many times you can't stand it
begging god or whoever is there to make love enough.

your eyes tear apart my soul as you take the ashes from my hair
looking as deep as all of it goes, not as deep as it seems.
and no, no, i can't breathe.
everything hurts and my eyes have gone blurry
unfortunately, i memorized your face long ago.

and goddamn those hands of yours
the way they feel absolutely nothing, taking everything.

and no,

no, i can't breathe anymore.