I Waited

Mind playing with thoughts of strength

The suitcase beneath me scratching gravel

Blue lace panties slightly hang out

I search for that blue in the shadow

Where’s that shadow you promised me

Where’s the sound of tires on gravel

Where’s your laugh and crooked smile

Where’s the last warm embrace

The sky rumbles, drops water on my shoulder

Daddy yells out the window we’ve gotta go

I pull my seat and throw it in the trunk

The hinge clicks and I hold my quiet sobs

I make excuses and she holds me like you should

Choking out, “maybe he got busy” and she hushes me

My head falling on her shoulder and wetting her hair

Mind playing with thoughts of strength; I waited